Last week I experienced a big disappointment - the winners for the Mom Central Blogging Grants were announced and I wasn't one of them.
Honestly, I'm disappointed. I really wanted to win that grant! It's taken me a week to process the loss and tell you about it. I know many of you voted for me daily and I hate to let you down.
As I thought about my disappointment I realized my negative emotions were causing negative thinking. Thoughts like "my blog isn't good enough," "I'm never going be a successful blogger," and "I should have worked harder" filled my mind.
Thankfully I have a wise husband who reminded me that my blog is good (though it can always be improved), that I am a success at blogging (though not where I want to be yet) and that I gave the contest my best shot.
Once my negative emotions decreased I could see the truth in Joel's words. I also started thinking about disappointment in motherhood.
Motherhood is chock full of unmet expectations! Some of them are silly, while others run deep and cause pain for years.
Here are a few of my motherhood disappointments:
- All 4 of my babies were delivered by c-section. Being strapped to a table surrounded by doctors and nurses is not a magical way to begin motherhood!
- One of my children has brown eyes. I know it's silly but my blue eyes have always been one of my favorite characteristics so I wanted my children to be blue-eyed. I'm over it now and love my child's chocolate colored eyes.
- I only nursed the first 2 boys a couple of months so I could go back on my RA medication. I always thought I'd breastfeed for a year.
- My school-aged children learned to read as kindergarteners. I learned to read before starting school and always thought my children would too.
What motherhood disappointments have you experienced? Silly or serious? Do they still cause you pain? Let's talk about it in the comments.